KimberleyB

I came here for fun and stress free swapping. Instead, I've had one person who won't stop messaging me about a post I made, and another person accusing me of being someone else without contacting me personally or checking their facts. And I've only been on swap bot for less than a week!

I have one swap I've signed up for so I can't quit now, but after that I'm gone. This is a very hostile environment and I don't need the stress.

And now it has been pointed out that there is a group with an entire nasty thread about me? What the heck is WRONG with you people???

Good RIDDANCE.

And just for an update, I would reply to the messages in the forums, but because people have put me as a flaker, I have been suspended and CANNOT EVEN DEFEND MYSELF!!

It's pretty bad that NO ONE came to me before I was suspended. For the record, I DID write to Rachel AND the administration concerning my sister. I did that the moment the nice person suggested I did. SHE is not the person I am talking about, although she did keep writing me. I am usually a pretty private person and don't share personal stuff with a bunch of people I don't know.

My mother died of cancer and I realized I was not as good a daughter as I wanted to be or should have been. her last words to me were 'you were a good daughter'. But it wasn't true.. So I got saved, then baptized. I actively look for ways I can serve others without expecting something in return. That is what angeling here is to me.This was not my intent when coming here initially, but when an opportunity presents itself I always try to answer the call. I am engaged to an amazing man, who believes in me even when I don't believe in myself. I don't have a son, I had a stepdaughter when I was married before. And while I did not gain custody or even visitation, I raised her for over 5 years so I think that qualifies me as a mom. We are also parents to our 4 legged friends. I try to do nice things when I can. It feels GOOD. I didn't actively seek out to do an angel thing, I just happened to notice once when I was logged on that there was a forum, I picked that one to read, and I remembered how badly my sister felt when she didn't get something she was hoping for.

I am not even talking about here on swap -bot, but on a yahoo group in which she was supposed to send a doll and get one. She loves dolls and collects them, and it was for Christmas. She was devastated.

It seemed really nice that I could do something that would help out a fellow Christian, though I am in no way judgmental of anyone else.

And while I am pretty poor, and have been out of work for almost 2 years now, these small things I saw there, like the devotional, was something I COULD do to make someone else smile. That's all.

I am not that other person. I have no idea why I suddenly became the subject of such hatred and nastiness (another thread I cannot access was pointed out to me, so trust me I'm not being overly sensitive). IF that other person has the same name as me, I can't control that!

I have been the victim of identity theft before with a phone bill. I'm not saying that happened here. I also know someone else who has the same name as me but it is spelled a little differently. I can only tell you the truth and let you decide.

I sit here typing and wonder WHY I even care what you people think. But I consider myself a good person and this has left me feeling very upset.

If you've read this far you can make up your own mind.